TGIF!

I love Friday's! It always means 3 days away from work; well, my full-time job anyway. Delivering papers is 7 days a week. Which in many ways I can't complain about. I get paid all most as much as I do for my full-time job and it's only a few hours a night. One of the reason's for taking a route was to get bills paid off. We're hoping to have most of them paid of here soon. I'm looking forward to spending the summer with Ashley. I figure in a few more years she won't want to hang out with me. HA! There are times now she ponders around the house finding things to do; easily entertaining herself. She truly amazes me with her imagination, and creativity. I think that comes more naturally to girls than it does boys.

We stayed at my parents last night. Andrew worked late then stayed up north at his mom's house. She lives closer to his work; we are about an hour away on a good day of no traffic. After scooting Ashley over so I could take a cat nap after papers; she started cracking up laughing. She told me later in the morning that she had a dream that she had no pants. That she had to take a shirt and wear them as pants. "Mom, it was so funny!" I guess it was with the way she was laughing. I ended up curling up with her as I fell a sleep. Ashley has always enjoyed being able to sleep with her momma! :0)

We had a cat at our house last night. I have seen it once before when I came home; it ran out from under the truck. But last night it was on the porch. I told Ashley to come look. It came out a little to see us but wouldn't let us touch it. It's not a kitten but not a full grown cat either; very pretty calico. Ashley ended up feeding it some canned dog food, in hopes it would come back! LOL! She's an animal lover like her mom!

Ashley started asking for a baby brother or sister again. "I'll take care of the baby! I promise!" She then asked if the baby would be sick with CMT like daddy. (She calls Andrew daddy). I told her there is a chance that the baby could have it. Ashley said "Well, Gavin has it too. But they are both OK. And I would love it anyway; you love someone for who they are. You don't worry about what's wrong with them, we are all different". Talk about being a proud momma! I loved Andrew before we knew he had CMT and I love him even more now I think because of the way he pushes on and doesn't give up.

We've talked about trying for another one, we're still kind of undecided and will see what God has in store for us. You see we had found out a week after the wedding that I was pregnant. Much to our surprise! (We decided not to tell the kids yet). I cried and was shocked. Andrew was shocked but was soo excited it. He didn't get to go through the whole pregnancy thing with Gavin's mom. I started to get used to the idea of being pregnant, I had gotten What to Expect when you're Expecting and even picked up a few baby things. Only to end up having a miscarriage a week and 1/2 after finding out. It crushed us. Andrew was amazing and took great care of me. I had a hard time dealing with it, I still do at times. It was hard seeing pregnant women and babies. And when I hear about someone abusing or even killing their kids it hurts more than it used too. I don't understand who anyone could hurt an innocent child or even take them out of this world. You have monsters like that who pop babies out left and right, then don't take care of their kids; and who have loving people who want nothing more than to be able to have kids and they can't. It makes you wonder some times.

Mom and her best friend booked their trip to Hawaii yesterday. They'll be gone for all most two weeks starting Oct. 27th. I WANNA GO! I haven't been back there since we moved back to VA in 1990. It was amazing there! I wish I could go with them; all I'd have to pay for is the flight and food. Of course all I would want to do is lay on the beach! :0) I'm a summer girl; winter and being cold is so not for me! If it's going to be cold then give me snow! Or else I don't want it! LOL!

Tonight is movie night with Ashley! Mom got her Open Season 2 the other day and she's been dying to watch it. I told her we would tonight. I'm still waiting to find out if Andrew's working late or not tonight. I hope not! I haven't seen him much this past week. I miss curling up with until I fall a sleep and eventually roll over! Ah, the good life!

Love & Hugs~
Kimberly

First Blog!!

Ok, so we all know that life isn't a fairytale; at least my life isn't. But isn't life about dreams, love and wanting our own "Happily Ever After". If it wasn't for the bad luck, then I wouldn't have any luck at all. I am blessed in life though. I have a wonderful husband, Andrew. We married August 9, 2008 at Quantico Marine Corps Base. I had all those who mean the most to be there with me. I have a beautiful 9 year old daughter. She is amazing and is one of the reasons for each breath I take; granted, there are times she takes it away with the stuff she does! (Good and bad! LOL!) I adore her though. I have a step-son, Gavin, who is 8. He's a very smart and cute kid. I'm adjusting to being a step-mom; it's hard at times. Ashley & Gavin are so different in so many ways! But I love them both. My parent's are amazing people; mom is my bestfriend! I'd be lost without her in my life.

We have a beautiful home out in the country in Spostylvania. I love it out there! It's nice and quiet, the kids enjoy the all most 4 acres we have to play in. You can see the stars at night and hear the birds chirping; and the deer enjoy eating my rose buds every time they are about to open! LOL!

I do love my life for the most part. Right now though, I work full-time for the local paper and at night I'm delivering the same paper. I feel like all I do is either work or sleep! I don't get to spend the time I used to with Andrew or the kids. I'm at that cross road in life of trying to figure out what I want to do with myself as far as a carreer. I make ok money for working in town; however, it's not enough and I will never be able to go any where in the company. It's pretty much a dead end job. And I'm getting burnt out. I want to go back to school for nursing, but I don't think we can afford it right now. I don't know; I have a lot of thinking to do. I would like to get back into the medical field though. I honestly enjoyed it!

I have learned to not take anything for life for granted. Of course I say this now but I'll get frusterated at Andrew later when he wants to love on me and I just want to go to sleep! Or when Ashley is making entirely to much noise at home; but then I miss her when she's not there. Always tell those you love; that you love them! You nor I, never know when the last time it is we may be able to see that person again!

Love & Hugs to you all! *MUAH*
~Kimberly